July 7th, 2003

LA

Morning at the hospital, uhh...

Spend most of the morning at the hospital waiting for my appointment. Of course, i overslept, didn't have time for breakfast and barely caught the bus, which seemed to do a tour of the area, it took almost an hour and cost a fortune. I definetly need to get myself registered again so that I can get a city bus discount card. Waited for about an hour, spend it reading Bare Bones. It's not bad, a little confusing in places maybe, but good. The appointment itself was pretty much what I had expected. The doctot guy gave me some crap about lifestyle and stuff. Hell, how am I supposed to eat nice when I get nauseous from the meds all the time. He laso asked why I hadn't been to see a doctor in ages. I didn't even try to explain. I moved back in with my parents 6 weeks ago, after almost four years of living away. Anyways things aren't looking too good. Don't think I want to write about it. My mood just turned from ok to crap. Grrr. I need distraction now, probably CSI. Gee, call that escape from reality.
  • Current Music
    CSI 3x08 Snuff
LA

RANDOM RANT, just ignore it

Why can't I just be happy about the good stuff in my life instead of being all miserable about the areas where things aren't that good. Hell, I finally finished school and did well, and still I feel like crap.
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    annoyed annoyed
LA

Distraction is the way to go

Almost always works with me, working on somethging to get my mind of things. Spend most of the afternoon playing around with a graphics programme, I don't think I'm very good at it, but it's fun. Did a new LJ avatar which I'm trying out right now. It didn't quite turn out the way I wanted but acceptable. I have actually started writing on wsdf again. Not much but it is a start. Needed again distraction from a fight with my parents. Sure, it's not only them, but it can't be only me. I did that all the time at SIC, cuz there I didn't have the room for a chair and the trampoline so I went with the trampoline (ok, now anyone who happens to read this must think I'm nuts). Hopefully I'll get some more done today, I'm kinda in the mood right now.
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    creative creative
LA

Oh yeah, tired

Did more dabbling with fanart. I'm just not too good with that. But who cares anyways. I wanted to make another seed for the TvT community but their page is down ago. Finished with the dailies for now.
trying to get an image up:



It does suck, but i wanna know whether i can upload something. I am just watching a weird CSI ep, a hunting accident in a forrest. I have been to Las Vegas two years ago and the landscape did not look like that. Unless there has been a major climate change since then ...
Strange, it's always in the evening that anxiety is creeping up on me and I get scared. it's not so much because it's dark and all that, although I did get paranoid in the last couple of years. It's all Max's fault and Mrs O's ;). No, it's at night that i start to worry about things like the future, health.
  • Current Music
    CSI 2x12