To clarify, I'm a Christian and do appriciate Christmas and its meaning as an important Christian holiday. My problems lie with the modern celebration of it. (and just having a general emotional mess in my head)
Otherwise, I'm still mostly in bed. Stupid experimenting around with meds stole my energy and made me all sleepy. The higher dosage is supposed to help declutter thinking even more and hence help managing daily life better.
Valium is the best thing to get rid of the tremors but even half a tablet makes me tired. Just noting observations on the meds so that I know what to tell the doc at the next appt. after Christmas.