Illman (illman) wrote,

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Today was a bit better than the weekend. Still had a sobfest and had the urge to hole up in my room, but I managed to go to both lectures (couldn't really focuss, but got the hand-outs and notes) and handed in work.

I don't like it, but after the last two evenings, I need a break. Time to get out the Valium. Not enough to fall straight asleep for the next 16 hours. (although that has its appeal, but it took me two days to get back to functional afterwards). No, just to calm down and to get a bit sleepy and maybe later on to fall asleep if needed. Feels like the easy way to me, but I need a break from crying, pacing and panicing until I'm exhausted enough to fall on the bed, lights and clothes still on.

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