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02 February 2005 @ 10:56 pm
Whew! Five tutorials this week are over! It was really too much, the stress was getting to me. The panic has been getting worse every day this week, I haven't been to any lectures since Monday, but I have been to the tutorials. I'll try for the lectures tomorrow. I tried today but was too panicked to even get out of bed until forced to do so by the maid who wanted to make the bed. Grabbed the blanket and got in front of the computer.

This week there is hardly any time to do the work, I'm a third done with the work (some of that is wrong and I know it, but I have written something, even though some of those probability calculations aren't overly probable). Tomorrow and on Friday afternoon, there is some sort of IT instruction/assignment/course and the quantum paper is due by 5 p.m. on Friday. The IT thing is schedule from 2 - 6 in the afternoon. So I have to finish the quantum paper tomorrow and on Friday before 2 p.m.. That makes not going to lectures seem like a fairly useful option to actually get the thing done, especially since I still need to do the reading for the stuff about particles on a ring and the harmonic oscilator. It's the maths that will be the death of me anyways.

Life is constantly spinning out of control somewhere and it's always the little things that get me.  e them (for the first time since I had gotten  back to school, I think). I randomly picked the ones my mother had bought me and she had insisted on buying in a fitting size (searched for ages to find fitting ones). I would have sworn that I had gained weight during the vacations and during the time back in school, but the pants still fit fairly loosly. Fuck. That is not something I wanted to deal with this term.
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
gledster2000gledster2000 on February 3rd, 2005 08:10 am (UTC)
Being human sucks sometimes. I can't laze around waching CSI all day because I've got to get SOME exercise to stop me becoming HUGE!!!! It's UNFAIR.

Sorry to hear your life seems to be chaotic. I expect mine will be if I get a teaching job in September!

Keep going illman, grit your teeth and keep going.
Illmanillman on February 3rd, 2005 06:14 pm (UTC)
Life just isn't fair. But keep up the sports. I must admit that with all the academic stress I have been slacking in the physical department.
Have you now decided that you will definetly look for a teaching job for the next academic year? In that case good luck with your job search. It can't be ease to work and hunt for the best job offer at the same time. (It's kinda weird that you have to find a job yourself, in Germany teachers are given a job by the state because they are considered state employees. But on the other hand,they can be relocated to another school without wanting to.)