Last night was bad and included enough Valium to have me dozing until this afternoon. Still on the fuzzy side now. Sometimes it does suck. And worse, it doesn't only suck for me. I know I'm not easy for my family.
Tonight is another hard night. Risperdal isn't making a dent in me tonight. It spins on and on. I just want to get away from the chaos in my head. I need a break. It's ironic, all I do is hole up in my room and I can't even seem to do that.