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30 October 2005 @ 07:36 pm
I didn't get to go home for good yet, just for overnight leave over the weekend. Pretty disapointed that it's going to be at least another few days, probably another week. Although, it's get less horrible. I'm probably just getting used to it.

Still I'm having a good weekend at home, catching up on on my email, some fanfic and just plain enjoying being home. I'm not too much into fandom right now. RL has taken over for the time beinfg and I can'twatch new eps anyways. But I'm browsing the lists every time I get on-line and I copy-pasted a few interesting looking fics for reading back at the hospital when I'm bored again. I'm having trouble reading from the screen again, must be one of those meds again, like the one I had early this year. It's still workable though. I am catching up on the last seasons of CSI and WaT in the evenings. WaT is amazingly good, but I found some cases a bit too predicatable. So far S1 is still my favourite. CSI is good entertainment and LV still beats Miami, but that's about it. I still don't like Grissom, think Sara has serious mood issues and have no doubt that Catherine is on crack. And where did Nick win is high school diploma? But it's good entertainment and what more do I want in 45 minutes? It's a lot funnier than Law and Order, although a lot of the hilarity is unintentional.

For the new season, I'm downloading SGA, SG1, CSI, Crossing Jordan, Numb3rs, Alias and Without a Trace. Alias is tentative until I have caught up with the fourth season. Law and Order airs too often to download all the time (or my internet connection at home is too slow, but I live out of range of cable internet). But for the moment, I'm not downloading anything until I get back home for good. Not to mention that there is so much that I didn't manage to watch last season.

This weekend I signed up for this year's NaNoWriMo. I have been participating in 2002 and 2003, with actually finishing in 2003. I must be really crazy, as I will still be stuck at the hospital at the beginning of November. But theoretically, I can write there. I have my laptop there anyways, I might as well use it to write. Time isn't a problem either. Compared to working full time or studying, the days are pretty unfullfilled. The fatigue makes up for it, I guess.

Also, I can't read very well at the moment. A lot of new meds in the past few weeks and my head is still pretty foggy. It's what bothers me most, the lack of focus and the bad memory. I hope it gets better as I get used to the meds (or I can go down with some of the meds again, never been on this much). Well, I'll see how well I can write and if I can't write, it's not the end of the world either, I'll just have to put my projects on ice a bit longer. Eventually, I'll manage again. In the meantime, I'll watch TV, and if I can't concentrate on TV, I'll watch sports and on the days when sports are too difficult, I'll listen to music.

Right now, I'm trying to knit. Everyone else is knitting or smoking, or doing both. I don't smoke. So I'll try knitting. What can go wrong with a scarf? I did one years ago, I even did socks once, so it shouldn't be too hard. I'm going to get the yarn tomorrow afternoon when I'm off from therapy (on Monday, this would be all of 'morning stretching' and 'walking').

I'm sorry I didn't have time to read your lj's recently. I have taken looks at the flist from time to time but didn't manage to stay up to date with it. Just not enough on-line time and real life being problematic. A few people defriended me and I can see why. I haven't been on lj for weeks and before that things were very repetetive/negative (I actually read through it, things were not going well for some time). But some journal (that were friends-only or virtually friends only) I would have liked to continue to read.
Current Mood: tiredtired
gledster2000gledster2000 on October 30th, 2005 03:56 pm (UTC)
I hope you're getting on ok illman. I miss talking to you so I hope you're let out soon. Sorry that the meds always have side effects, looks like the perfect combination that I keep wishing for hasn't been found yet. I wonder if it ever will be? I hope it will.

I'm sending you loads of best wishes Fran.
Illmanillman on November 6th, 2005 11:07 am (UTC)
Thank you so very much. Your friendship means a lot to me and I wish we would get to chat more often.

I don't think the perfect combination of meds exists for anyone. In the hospital I have met many people who have the same problems I do with the meds: they either don't work well, or the side effects are too bad or both.
gledster2000gledster2000 on November 6th, 2005 03:25 pm (UTC)
We can still keep hoping though yeah? Hope doesn't hurt.

You sound as if you're doing ok. Do you know how long you've got left there?
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Illmanillman on November 6th, 2005 11:09 am (UTC)
Thaks. And smooth goings for everything in fandom!
hope springs a kernel: on the edge of everythingoh_mumble on October 30th, 2005 04:26 pm (UTC)
::hugs you:: I'm so glad you're geting to be home a bit more, have missed you being around. Good luck with the knitting! I suck at it, and am in total awe of anyone who can string things togther :)
Evidence: uphillbattleevidenceshows on October 31st, 2005 12:15 am (UTC)
Well I for one am never defriending you whether you are on LJ or not. But I hope things work out soon so that you're able to enjoy everything you use to enjoy. Yay for Nano writing! And :big hugs:
Illmanillman on November 6th, 2005 10:46 am (UTC)
Thanks. I for one will always enjoy reading your journal and I know that I'm fortunate to have you on my friends' list.
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Illmanillman on November 6th, 2005 10:45 am (UTC)
Danke. Ich hoffe dir geht es zur Zeit gut.