On Sunday I'm going to meet with a breeder to check out birds. I don't want Lady Blue to be alone. I hope I make it to the guy on Sunday. I'm having bad panic attacks again and the agoraphobia is acting up again.
Today is bad. Fear is having a tight grip on me. I took 8 pills of valium to get to the store this morning. After that I fell asleep for a couple of hours. Now the panic is creeping back on. I used to have thisback in college, two weeks of trembling panic keeping me indoors.
It's not my day. Since I went into the psych hospital last fall, a lot has gotten better for me. It was a hard time at the hospital but I really got better. But today, everything seems to hurt.