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05 December 2006 @ 10:57 pm
I have been stuck in this down phase since the weekend and I can't seem to get out of it. I'm nervous, I'm irritable and I'm anxious. Exactly the sort of mood that gets on everybody's nerves, even mine. I can't stand to be around myself the last few days. I hope it's just an early incarnation of the hole I usually fall in during the holiday season.
Current Mood: depresseddepressed
iamrighthereiamrighthere on December 5th, 2006 10:00 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry you're depressed. The holiday can do that, so maybe you'll perk up after they're over. In a month. Jeez, that's such a long time, though. Is there anything in particular that helps? You've posted some incredible writing lately. Does venting via fic or via private journal (or LJ) relieve some of the stress?
Illmanillman on December 7th, 2006 06:38 am (UTC)
My mood usually perks up after the holidays and my birthday, which I don't celebrate anyways, but which still pulls me down every year, my mood usually get better.

Writing has helped me through a lot of down phases. I often take a while to get started, but it helps.
iamrighthereiamrighthere on December 7th, 2006 10:53 am (UTC)
Well, hang in there, hon. Why don't you care to celebrate your birthday? You don't have to answer if it's too private.
Illman: forgottenillman on December 7th, 2006 05:46 pm (UTC)
No, it's a fair question. I spent quite a few years away at boarding school growing up and there I was usually the only one who remembered my birthday. It used to make me rather sad that I never got presents or a card unless I bought them myself, so I stopped celebrating entirely. Still drags me down every year when my birthday comes around.
iamrighthereiamrighthere on December 7th, 2006 05:51 pm (UTC)
Would it cheer you up if people (at least your LJ tribe) celebrated a little bit? E-cards? Cookies in the mail? I LOVE celebrating other peoples' birthdays. My own...I'm too old to want to know about it!
I'm Jack Sparrow's jar of dirt. [Don't touch me!]: BSG | Six - angelicninnui on December 6th, 2006 11:21 am (UTC)
*hugs* Don't try too hard to get into Holiday mood.. it's just ordinary days with excessive eating ;)
Illman: Eppesillman on December 7th, 2006 06:31 am (UTC)
Thanks. It's just the prospect of all the shopping and other stuff that's getting to me. Maybe I should write some fic :)

Working on your present got me watchig Doctor Who again. While I watched some old episodes a while back and wasn't impressed, I find I really like the newer ones.