Illman (illman) wrote,

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Mental Health Check-in

I've had one of the worst weeks of my life.

I probably had worse weeks when I first when crazy, but those first six month are a total blur. I vaguely remember having a job from which I got fired quickly, sleeping a lot and seeing my psychiatrist a lot.

It's been two weeks since I went off Cymbalta and its only gotten worse since. I can't sleep, I can't think, I've head a headaxhe for a week and it feels like something is screaming inside my head :(.

I have no idea how I'm going to get through work tomorrow or finish my paper. It isn't due until Thursday, but my grades have been sucking so far this academic year already. The notes a made a few weeks ao make no sense. It's a wonder I managed to put a meal on the table today. Didn't earn any praise, more like the contrary.

Risperdal helps for a few hours, mainly because it makes me sleep. I can't really sleep without it, nor do I want to because of the nightmares.

I have been alternating between deciding to call Dr. S-D first thing on Monday morning and never wanting to talk to her again for taking me off Cymbalta. It might be time to find a new psychiatrist. This seems to be a good time as any since Dr. F already offered to take me on as a patient, even though he only treats children. I ditched my first one after Tompamax withdrawal landed me in the hospital.

I think I need some risperdal before I start screaming and wake up the whole house.

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