Illman (illman) wrote,

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There isn't really much new to report, despite me having been absent for a few months. It seems like every winter, for the past few years, at least, I've fallen into this hole and every year it takes me longer to dig my way out of it again. I'm not even sure I have dug my way out of it again. This time, said hole swallowed me before I had a chanced to finish my NaNoWriMo novel, so for now, it remains unfinished on my computer. It's a shame, not so much because I didn't reach the 50k. I don't need to prove to myself that I can do that. I've done it five times, I know it's doable. It's a shame because I actually liked the story and thought it had potential to be better than most of my other NaNo novels (that is, it was actually bordering on coherent).

Recently, the good hours of my days have mostly been occupied with attempts at studying. I'm doing a course on 'Medicinal Chemistry'. It's hard going, but it helps that to me it's actually very interesting. I had a difficult time getting started this academic year (which began in February), because well, I couldn't help but wonder what on earth I'm doing in grad school. I get these phases occasionally but I think I got my groove back now. Nothing has changed really, except I stopped thinking about it so much. I need to do something, and grad school sure isn't the worst thing I could get up to, even if I only to do it because it is interesting and to keep busy.

The not-so-good hours, I usually spend watching TV, reading fanfic or working on my language skills. I'd love to start learning a new language, but I don't think I have the brain for it these days, so I stick with improving on what I already know. Spanish is my focus these days. I was once very good at it, having spend time in Peru, but that was ten years ago and I have forgotten a lot since. I haven't taken any classes recently so far and at the moment I'm not planning on taking any. Classes, except for advanced conversation classes, usually involve grammar and that is just not the way I learn a language.

Since the debacle that was NaNoWriMo 2010, I have only recently picked up my virtual pen again. Nothing major, just some random missing scenes to get writing again. Not sure if I'll end up posting any of them, but it feels good to have finishing something, even it it's just small pieces. Despite the difficulties I'm having, I really enjoy writing. Besides, and this sounds stupid, getting something written, no matter how small, feels like an important part of climbing out of that hole I've seemed to have fallen into once again :-)

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